This isn’t me speaking as a trainer.

This is me speaking as a person.

Not from achievement, but from the effort it takes just to hold it all together.

I don’t think this will offer any lesson, takeaway, or happy ending.

What I do know is that what I share here isn’t meant to be liked.
It just is.

And sometimes, what is doesn’t match what’s expected.

For many years (despite everything), I was a happy kid, a positive teenager, and then—as an adult—I ran into the hardest part:
Living with insecurity, frustration, doubt, ego, unmet ambitions, and a constant background noise of something missing.

Sometimes it’s strength. Sometimes stability.
Often time. Often money.

I work alone, think alone, plan alone.

Yes, I use tools (and GPT—thanks for that).
I’m pretty self-taught.

I know where I want to go:
To live doing what I love.
But between knowing and doing, there’s a big gap.

One that sometimes wears me down.

Caóticamente was born from all of this.

From emotional mess, mental noise, and unanswered questions.
But also from a desire to share from a more honest place.

If this sounds familiar—if you’re also trying to hold it all together without anyone noticing—then this space is yours too.